LITTLE BIRTHDAY NOTE (EPISODE II)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

LITTLE BIRTHDAY NOTE (EPISODE I)

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I always wait for this day every year. Maybe it also happened to some people. Or maybe not. There's a different sensation when the day come. I can't define that feeling, but I enjoy it.

That's why I wait until 00.00 hours. Remembering what has happened, laughing at joy and fools I made, speechless on sadness and amazing events. Puff... c'est la vie. I wont be able to replace those up and down things. No matter how hard I try.

5...
4...
3...
2...
1...
Tic...

It's a new month... I don't know why, but I really love this month. It's not because of my birth month, but because it's our independence day.





Hello Augie

11 years ago, on this date, July, 27, 1996, there was a riot in Jakarta between 2 big political party. FYI at that time there were only 3 political party in this country.

It happened at 8 o'clock in the morning. The bad part was I get caught by cops during the riot with I don't know around hundreds of others. Shit, I don't know anything about political stuff. I was just the wrong man at the wrong time. I skipped school just to go round around the city and get caught. For the 1st time in my life I was taken to prison. It was underground prison. I didn't even know where the fuck is the exact location.

I dreamt about some of my ex these couple of days. I dunno why. In this occation I would like to say some words for them.
- Sarah Eva Tongam Riama, 1st GF, 1st kiss. May God take good care of your soul.
- Hegi Ramadhanti, we were born only a day apart. I'm sorry for not being serious with you. It is also dedicated to Adriana Aprilia
- Estika Widya Kemala, GROW UP!!!, you're not a little girl anymore
- Viola Syafarina, I don't have any regret breaking up with you
- Ovia Zahra Nst, I'm dead serious. Unfornutaley you pick someone else. That's OK.

I wish you all the best. Have a nice life.

Self actualization : sweat, blood and tears

ID...Valid ID?

Lit the cigarettes

Wherever you are, whatever you do, whenever you wanna come
There is a HOME waiting for you

Aku telah berbohong selama ini. Sebenarnya aku adalah orang yang sangat posesif, karena tubuh dan jiwa ini telah lelah selalu ditinggal.

Mei, Juni....dan sekarang Juli.

Aku seonggok daging yang berjalan terhuyung di bulan ini. Aku hanya sekumpulan tulang belulang renta yang tergopoh mencari pegangan. Aku mempunyai sepasang bola mata yang tidak melihat dan segaris senyum getir namun tetap ceria.

Lari. Dan terus aku berlari dari kenyataan yang sudah aku perkirakan. Dan aku kembali lagi kepada ketakutan yang dulu pernah menghampirku.

Sekarang aku berhenti merasakan sesuatu. Ini bukan hanya tentang itu. Tapi semuanya. Karena saat ini, semua sedang tidak pada tempat semestinya.

If she could hear my heartbeat when she's near
Beduk takbir? gak ada apa-apanya
Metallica's drum? kalah kenceng

Unfortunately,
A little too fast, but way too long
I'm lost...I don't even know where the fuck I am now
Though I'm not sure where I belong

I lost my GLOW

I don't wanna push you.
Take your time.
Take a deeper look.
When you're ready and already trust me,

ring my front door bell.

Gifts and words are nothing. It's only just a little....LIIIIIIIIITTTTTLLLE things.

Mommy, daddy :

HAPPY 28th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY
HOPE YOU'LL LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER UNTIL DEATH DO YOU APART